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Modesty Monster

22 Jun

Our church focuses a lot on modesty, as it should. The Lord has called all of us ladies to follow the practices of modesty; in what we say, in what we do, and (in my opinion most importantly) what we wear. There are SO MANY bible verses that call us to modest ( 1 Timothy 2: 9: In like manner women also in decent apparel: adorning themselves with modesty and sobriety, not with plaited hair or gold, or pearls or costly attire- being one of my favorites). Being modest not only shouts our praises to the Lord, it protects us, as well as the ever important task of protecting our brother’s hearts. How hard it must be for a male these days to not sin just by walking outside, or turning on the tv! Why make it harder for them?

I was struck by all this while shopping for bras yesterday. Its not just the pretty colors that you can pick (this doesn’t really bother me, since I do like the pretty colors), but more the…”accessories” that come in them.

What is up with the inability to find a plain bra? I found ones with padding, ones with gel, push-ups, ones with these strange little air pocket thingys, and ones with memory foam (yeah, not kidding). WHY????? Are we so inundated with messages that no matter how big, you need to be bigger? Why does it matter? The Lord did not create our bodies so that we could put them on display, but instead so that they could nourish our children. We are not made so that we can offer our bodies up like candy to a population of unsaved men (and some women), to be judged and either approved/condemned based on our appearances.

Also a favorite:

A beautiful woman lacking discretion and modesty is like a fine gold ring in a pig’s snout

Proverbs 11:22


Lost tools

12 Mar

Skin cultures were done on my holes today, after one of them, or something attached to one of them, ruptured and drained goo and a lot of blood (there’s a mental image for ya!). Results should be in on Monday, and that will hopefully put me on the final path toward a much anticipated answer.

I realized through these past 48 hoursĀ  of excruciating pain that I have lost a very powerful tool I used to have. Several years ago, IĀ  had the ability to convince myself I was not in pain. I was able to push even the most powerful of physical pains into something the size of a pin, then push it out of me. As I laid in bed awake last night for hours and hours on end, I kept trying to make myself remember how I did it, until finally I just let the pain wash over me. How did I do it? And why now when I need it more than ever before have I forgotten my little trick?

I know that in the end this is going to make me a better person. And I will continue to praise Him, through the sleepless nights, the gauze changes, the growing phobia of q-tips, the blood draws, the pill swallowing, the heartburn from the pill swallowing, and the deep lingering pain in my legs and back. He is a God of mercy and grace, and He won’t give me anything I can’t handle. I am just excited to be on the other side of this bridge and see it from across the water, and to laugh at all the things I’ve gone through the past 2 years.